one of those times

One of those times
when I feel myself curling inwards
and all that I can't say, express,
Settles in a pit inside

One of those times
when to manage becomes hiding
and to hide hurts just as much
as exploding, on the out

maybe not

One of those times
when my heart becomes as heavy
and as dull as something
Lifeless, smiling, lying

one of those times

How do I turn inside out?
Will the turning be better?

maybe not
maybe
maybe so

A more skillful hand than mine
can bring me out
help me breathe
lift me up

one of these times